In the tapestry of life's experiences, there are encounters that quietly stitch a new perspective into our souls. My recent visit with a long-time church member, whom I’ve come to think of as "the angel in room 137," did just that. Sitting at his dining table, in a modest room bearing the number 137, we embarked on a conversation that wove its way deep into the fabric of my being.
The phrase "Life is a Shitty Beautiful Mess" might raise a few eyebrows, especially coming from a pastor or devoted follower of Christ. Yet, it was his candid expression of this thought that struck a chord with me. Room 137, now more than a number, held a story that echoed a gospel song from my childhood - a narrative that rooted itself deeply in my memory.
The Complexity of Questioning
Our discussion ventured into the realms of theology and the intricacies of life. It became evident that to question is not a sign of weakened faith but an embodiment of a deeper, more authentic relationship with our spirituality and existence. It's a candid acknowledgment that even in our most profound beliefs, there is room for reflection, growth, and sometimes, confusion. This courageous stance on questioning and seeking clarity in the mess speaks to a faith that is alive, evolving, and authentic.
Unapologetically Ourselves
Inspiration can seep through the cracks of our most challenging moments, urging us to rise unapologetically in our truth. My encounter in room 137 served as a poignant reminder that we are each called and created to fulfill a unique purpose. To dilute our essence in the pursuit of fitting a mold does a disservice not only to ourselves but to the divine craftsmanship of our being. This revelation urges me to live a life that is genuinely mine, one that embraces the entirety of who I am in the eyes of the Creator.
Finding Beauty in the Mess
Perhaps the most profound takeaway from my time spent in room 137 is the affirmation that there is beauty to be found in our mess. Life, in all its unpredictability and complexity, holds moments of pure beauty, often concealed within our struggles. This concept has encouraged me to pause and reflect amidst life's tumult, to seek and appreciate the radiant beams of light that break through the darkest clouds.
A Journey of Reflection
The angel in room 137, through his openness and wisdom, has prompted a soulful introspection within me. The concept of "Life is a Shitty Beautiful Mess" resonates as a powerful truth, acknowledging the dual nature of our existence. It's a call to adventure through life with resilience, to seek the divine in every moment, and to cherish the imperfect beauty inherent in our journeys.
In the end, our reflections and inquiries carve out a path that is uniquely our own. They compel us toward a deeper understanding of ourselves, our purpose, and the divine intricacies of life. Room 137, once just a number, now symbolizes a sacred space of enlightenment, encouragement, and eternal growth.
To my angel in room 137, thank you for the reminder to live fully, question bravely, and love the beautiful mess that is life.
Blessings to you as we go forward in God’s grace and mercy,
Rev. Vance E. Haywood (he/him)
Senior Pastor
St. John's MCC
Office: 919-834-2611 ext 402
StJohnsMCC.org
